Quit cold turkey in the middle of the pandemic. I pretended to be sick and lay in bed sweating it out for a week. Tried some AA meetings but not really my thing. After a few weeks I stopped counting the days and after 6 months I stopped counting altogether. It was difficult but I really wanted to stop. Cravings are rare and mild now. My hygiene has improved dramatically. (Showers kill buzzes). No more diarrhea!

On the flip side my wife says I don't talk much anymore. I was always rather grim and quiet and booze loosened me up. But all the alcohol on earth couldn't drown my hellish upbringing. But forgiving my mother did .

Well, I really don't want to get into all the gory details I just wanted to write it down. The umpteenth time I attempted to stop seems to be working. So if you are struggling and fall don't punish yourself. Try again when the urge to quit arises. It may be the time that works.

Peace to all and I am oooot!

17 years of getting buzzed to drunk every night seem to be ending. The first week was rough, fever, labor pains and diarrhea babies. But I feel great now. Lost 15 pounds and gained 400 dollars a month. Memory is improving. Booze took the edge off my personality. I am quite the high strung prick it turns out. I am loving it! It's like turning the clock back. Also, my slightly high blood pressure normalized!

My 13 grandchildren deserve a better papaw. I am trying to be one.

Peace all.

Thanks for the hearts. The crispy ember of my shriveled soul grew two sizes!

Seriously, I am absolutely touched. Shocked even. Thank you very much.

Winter cabbage, 2 bite red and gold potatoes, and 3lbs of polish sausage. Boiled and simmered to perfection. I recently stopped drinking so I figure I have about 2k calories a day to pig out on. It is nice to eat again. Peace! Love y'all!

I persevered.

It was a disgusting ordeal.

There is no lesson here.

That is all.

I love this stupid movie.

I look too much like a treasonous scumbag.

Okay. I am better now. I have no anger or hate, only indifference for the nazis. Here is my take.

The attack on the Capitol was supposed to be coordinated with attacks on the Capitols of Democratic and swing states. Most of these secondary attacks didn't materialize. MAGAts are overwhelmingly old, fat, stupid or cowardly. So it failed, as everything Trump tries fails. It is difficult to see the end goal when the overall plot didn't thicken. There weren't enough true believers to execute the mission. Given Trump's megalomania and penchant for exaggeration this is not surprising.

Indifference is worse than rage for the enemy. Narcissists get nothing from indifference.

As the Democrats did during the civil rights era. I won't hold my breath.