What psychosis it like

[undergroundpanther]

This is a video that is supposed to demonstrate to a viewer,what schizophrenia is like from the schizophrenics point of view during a psychotic episode..Check it out, it is interesting.


I notice a few of the symptoms in the video overlap a bit with a few things I also experience having PTSD & DID,when in a crisis or meltdown. The voices I hear are internal, inside my skull,but if I get triggered bad enough I will I hear abusers voices or hear the door being broke down,gunshots etc.

http://www.janssen.com/mindstorm_video.html

[panader0]

1. Sorry about your PTSD

What caused it?

[undergroundpanther]

8. my life..

It came from living my life..rape when I was a kid by a pedophile fundie christian asshole ,violent incest from my drunk father while my mom was in the hospital,bullying for years in school,at home & neighborhood,,mother at odds with my tastes and she playing control games,emotionally cruel and sometimes violent.Being put in a seclusion room for months,forced injections,5 point restraints,cold sheet packs,anectine,,by people supposed to be helping me,forced by a therapist to attend a triggering gender conformity class in the 80's and being threatened with rape and humiliated, lots of various shit heads ,authoritarian assholes& perverts I have encountered,bully staff,being attacked by staff, being railroaded out of programs and housing because psych admins can't deal with me..defending fellow patients when staff/patients were harming them,orchestrating a unit riot on 1000 mgs thorazine 4 times a day,so people on the unit could graduate high school(long story cops involved)..being forced into and felt up in restraints,years in the psych system .Bad therapists.
Being hit by a car going 45 mph while walking to anniversary dinner with an ex, shot at,attempted rapes, different people trying to manipulate me into sex and becoming violent when I said NO, So I fought them and or left/tossing them out/busting their balls.Being betrayed,manipulated in general, betrayed by and manipulated by organized religions.

A bad divorce from a bad relationship with a cold asshole who I thought I loved..Neighborhood bullies murdering my cat and I could do nothing to save him.A neighbors vicious dog killing another cat I adored,my mom didn't tell me I searched for him for weeks and I found out about it years later,everyone thought I knew he was killed, This cat literally had PINK fur, I never have seen a cat with fur like that since,his brother was a polydactyl..

Sisters being violent to me,abandoning me & putting me in danger.Treated as an outcast or problem by most of my family.Father murdering my pet rooster for defending me and trying to force me to eat him,my father trying to kill my mom,my mom using me as a human shield that day,saving her from him.Still living in the same town where all this shit happened,being isolated,being intelligent,because sometimes it feels like a curse,being sensitive,honest,really creative,having bad roommates,etc.etc...my life has been more bad than good..I think if most anyone who wasn't a psychopath lived through this life they'd probably suffer some sort of psychiatric damage too.

[mmonk]

2. Interesting.

Thanks for the link.

[Warpy]

3. One of the saddest cases I knew was a kid who looked a lot like Laughner

when I was doing an intake interview. He asked if there was any way we could silence all the bad voices and let him keep the good ones.

This was a kid who took his meds and was managing college. He just had relapses like so many do and had to come in periodically for a tuneup.

I've always wished pharmacology or psychosurgery or something had advanced far enough that I could have told him yes. Unfortunately, all I could tell him was that we could make all the voices in his head quieter so he could hear the voices outside his head better. We still can't do any better than that, and we can't even do that much 100% of the time.

I keep hoping it will happen.

[Maine_Nurse]

4. I hear ya...

I've seen some sad ones that make me feel just horrible that we can't do more to help. We had one that was well on the way to accomplishing suicide when he got "saved" by the random event of a pipe bursting in the apartment above him. Landlord entered to deal with it and found him lying there after an OD. Once he was physically safe and with us, his reasoning for killing himself was quite rational, logical, and compelling. It was one of those patient encounters that really makes you think about a lot of things.

[WhiteTara]

5. that must be emotionally difficult work

welcome to DU :hi:

[Maine_Nurse]

6. Thank you!

I'm an irritable, stressed, opinionated Dem version of Archie Bunker, but I'm probably an ok guy most of the time.

As for the job, well it sure has its moments, but I really love the work and my patients. Now if we can just keep from getting shut down by the new Governor's cuts...

[canetoad]

7. Here's another link to the video

I found the Janssen site loaded slowly, reducing full effect of the video with no way to pause/buffer.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEXyqe85cuA

[mdmc]

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