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:hi: ASAH. Several events have moved me to post about the flow. At first I thought it was a place of meditation but have come to realize that it's not really, because it's not about allowing the time for the practice. It's a constant. It's quiet stream of energy in the awareness of every little thing that I'm doing, not even forcing thoughts out to quiet the mind, though the quiet mind is where the flow takes me. I know negative thoughts, like worry and fear, take me out of the flow and as quickly as possible let them go, like automatically dropping a pin that just pricked me or the flame that just burned me.
I was in the flow of baking early this month, and in one moment of mindlessness, the thought (the voice) popped in and said, "You can take on extra work." Extra work! Oh, hell, no, I snapped back. Everything is flowing just right. Two days later I got email from a company I use to edit transcripts, saying they are reorganizing (after outsourcing to the Philippines) and could I start in about 3 weeks? Without thinking about it I jumped at the chance, so pleased they would consider me. And I'm like, now why did I do that? Last Wednesday, my husband came home saying he'd lost a juicy contract. It was a surprise because it shouldn't have expired for another 6months. But the company is shutting down. After some financial gymnastics, everything is fine for the next month. Just in time for my job to kick in. And I just got a soothing message from the company today keeping me posted, but wanting to know if I could start even sooner.
For me, this state of mindlessness, when being aware of the ever present Now, seems to be where we are connected to all things; even changing for the better how I perceived the past and allowing a better future. It's almost as if somewhere and at all times, somebody or something has exactly what they need to offer and what I'm ready to accept. A beautiful, positive exchange of gifts that comes when in the right frame of mind (or no mind), that the flow prepares me for.
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