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I've been away for a while dealing with some issues and although I've been lurking here, I've not been able to really take part...until today. Stella, Girl, love ya and want you to know I'll be calling you in a couple of days. God bless you and and I've been praying for you. there are others that had emailed me that I'll be getting in contact with within a week. I feel like today, (actually tonight), I wanted to start a new year on today, my birthday and I have been praying that this year brings calmer conditions and better health for myself anf my family.
When I look back and realise that I am now 43,(for some reason feels like a lucky year for me), I feel that there is so much for me to learn and to give to others here and elsewhere. I suppose that this has really come to me because I called my Grandmother and wished her a happy birthday, (87) and when she spoke to me, she interchanged my name and that of her favourite child, my MOM, (Margie). It brought back to me the importance of taking each and everyday to tell all those I care for how much I love them and how much they mean to me.
There are those here who I haven't gotten to known YET but I want you all to know that I genuinely look forward to forming strong, enduring and supportive relationships each one who God send me and leads me toward. I have been through alot, much more than some and not as much as others but as I read the prayer requests and support requests of those who asked them. I've lit candle after candle for all of you with the last one of you being SeattleGirl, (God bless you Girl and so glad to learn that your baby is just fine---look forward to your posts of her bridal photos!) I may not comment on each and every post but I read them, especially those who've undergone trials and tribulations.
I want to thank one of the forum members for a gift that was bestowed to me a few months back and I'm positive that UndergroundPanther had no idea that the post regarding taking life back after being unappreciated and mistreated came just when I needed to be reminded of the fact that I was completely justified in not allowing someone who should have taken care of me as a child and instead, abused me horribly. My father. I decided back in 2004 to completely and once and for all, cut all ties with him. I was being told by a sibling that I needed to give him another chance and although I had no intention of giving him one more second of access to my life, I read Underground's post about getting rid of a toxic relationship and knew that The People were speaking to me via that sweet one's story letting me know I'd done the right thing.
I don't want to ramble on, as some of you know I can tal folks to sleep but just wanted all of you to know how grateful that there are folks like you who understand the things that people like me, (and all of you, walk through in life. I'm grateful for all of you and what you have taught me and shown me. God bless all of you and keep all of you safe in the year to come, with hope of a brighter future. I think that, considering what we've gone through in the last 6 years, had I not been able to find DU and then stumble onto this forum, I would be sitting here with a jacked up TV,( shattered screen with a spike heeled pump sitting where the Grand Idiot's mug had been) and there'd be a good chance that you'd be reading about me and countless, faceless thousands, many of whom never post on this site or any other.
Thank God for all of you and a candle burns tonight for each one of you.
Ecumenist 01.30.64. 9:21 pm Hollywood California
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