That's it. Fuck it.

[WindRavenX]

I have officially had it.
I'm tired of loving people and accepting them.
I'm tired of loving people fully and loving them as they are.
I'm tired of accepting people. I'm tired of this.
So yeah. I'm tired of loving.
I loved someone who was hurt.
I loved someone who hurt me. I waited for him to get better because I believed in him and I loved him.
I loved him because I trust him.
And NOW I'm the one that gets FUCKED because I CARE.
WHY are people NOT honest?
WHERE ARE THE HONEST PEOPLE IN THIS FUCKING WORLD.
WHERE? WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAPPEN! WHY DO I FUCKING LOVE PEOPLE.

I am so fucking broken right now. Not even broken hearted. Just. Fucking.
Broken.

[coloradodem2005]

1. What happened?

:hug:

[Bouncy Ball]

2. Aw, sweetie!

:hug:

AND NO ONE SHOULD TAKE THIS AS EVIDENCE OF EXCLUSIONARY BEHAVIOR, I AM QUITE SURE WINDRAVEN WOULD TAKE HUGS FROM ANYONE, OK? SO HUG AWAY!

Now that we got that out of the way, I am really sorry. There ARE good people (guys) out there, I promise!!!

[BikeWriter]

3. I/we/ love you! Hang in there!

[RevolutionaryActs]

4. I'm sorry.

:hug:

[Swede]

5. Love hurts.

It's a cliche,but a true one.

[sparky_in_ma]

6. Damn, I'm sorry you're hurting.

:hug: You're good people.

[Burma Jones]

7. You have power, love is power, compassion is a strength

And people get tired when they use their power. If you look long enough, you will find someone that will respect that. Until then, get some rest and ace your finals.........

[MrSandman]

8. To avoid the potential for being hurt...

We must cease to care.

If we cease to care, we become those we despise.

That doesn't fix being broken, but keep it in your heart.

:hug:

[Droopy]

9. You can never know love

until you put yourself out there. You have to take a chance in love matters and that includes the chance that you will get hurt. You have to make yourself vulnerable. But the reward can be priceless. Don't let one bad situation ruin you forever.

[RandomKoolzip]

10. I'm sorry for you.

There's somebody out there who doesn't suck...I've never met him or her, but he/she exists.

[Rowdyboy]

11. I'm really sorry, but most men aren't worth killing....

Sad....but true...

[MrSandman]

12. And the only reason they are still alive:

It is illegal to shoot them.

[WindRavenX]

13. HOW FUCKING HARD IS IT TO BE HONEST

HOW HARD??

[IChing]

16. ask Bolton's wife, ask the catholic pedophile priests

Love is asking for nothing in return

I'm sorry but that is the only truth about love

everything else is about me and that hurts


just a little zen for you.

[RandomKoolzip]

17. Not difficult at all, if you're psychotic or schizophrenic....

[Lerkfish]

18. sounds like your'e hurting a lot....

just remind yourself:

you are lovable and capable. You are worthwhile. You are not defined by the misdeeds of others. You are greater than your surroundings.

:hug:

[VelmaD]

24. Unfortunately it's harder than some people...

can seem to manage. It sucks but it's true. Most people never seem to fully grow up into decent, caring, honest, adult human beings.

I'm sorry you're hurting. :hug:

[CountAllVotes]

29. yep how hard is right

and is there something to hide? Do we need this type of stress? Is it doing us any good at all and furthermore, do they give a damn? Hell no, probably in bed asleep or out partying somewhere.

:evilfrown:

[johnnie]

14. Oh hun.....

:hug:
Sometimes loving someone doesn't seem to be the right thing at the time, but loving someone isn't for their heart... it is for your heart. The love you have is for warming up your soul, if someone that you feel that love for grasps on to it, then good for them, but the love we have is an internal comfort. It's like offering someone your hand, it is open to them, but they might not be ready to open their hand. But your open hand is much more comforting than a fist.

[Kenneth ken]

15. I'm sorry

that you hurt. :hug:

Honesty takes strength and courage; sometimes more than people have. After hurting, I hope you can forgive and move on. To love also requires strength and courage, but it IS worth the effort.

I wish you love.

[IChing]

21. You are loved

and you have a right to be here
you have friends here that are kind and loving
asking nothing in return
for their love.

Now give me a quarter.

[Nite Owl]

19. I'm sorry you are

hurting so. I wish I could reach out and give you a real hug.

Not that it's much comfort now but it isn't you who have the real problem, it's him. You are the one who loved and he couldn't. His loss.:hug:

[JohnnyCougar]

20. I'm sorry...

The very same thing happens to all of us. Well, a lot of us. There are people who care and people who don't. That never changes.

Look for someone who doesn't look to you to cure their hurt. Look for someone that can sustain themselves independently.

You can't nurse people back to health psychologically. Those who are healthy stay healthy, and those who are sick stay sick. It is a rare occasion when someone actually changes...rare enough that one mortal cannot induce the change.

The people that are healthy are not the ones that immediately seek attention. But they need companionship just as much as anyone else. Go find someone that truly cares about themself...because it is impossible to love someone else if you don't love yourself!! Believe me, I know!!

[fleabert]

22. so sorry.

I feel the same way sometimes. It sucks.

:hug:

[sundog]

23. because you have faith in humanity

don't lose it please... life may harden your heart a bit & make you less naive... but don't let that kill your openness :)

[CountAllVotes]

25. you aren't alone

I'm going through the same thing myself right now. In fact, I almost left the house a few hours ago. TRUST? What exactly is that I am beginning to wonder.

Caring? I really wonder if someone cares anymore. Maybe it is time for me to hit the road I am thinking.

And yeah, I hurt, I feel and I too know what it is to love. Some people never have the opportunity in life to know what love really is.

Hang in there and know that you are not alone and PM me anytime at all! :hug:

[coloradodem2005]

26. I'm sorry and I understand how you feel.

It is not fair. I don't understand why people, either out of thoughtlessness or evil desire hurt others on any level. I keep wondering that every time I care about someone. :hug:

[CountAllVotes]

27. I think they are plain selfish

That is what I have decided. What person in ill health deserves to be dumped in a Costco and has to lift heavy items when you have an able bodied person right there that can easily do it? I must be crazy I am thinking for hanging in this situation.

The person I am dealing with is self serving. Always has been, always will be. Only moves when the rough gets going. I've had it myself and, yeah I think I give up.

I don't know that I ever want to find love in my life again for it has been nothing but pain and disappoint for me. Maybe that is what is going on here too. DISAPPOINTMENT and you foolishly believed it thought was love and it is not. :(

[Bok_Tukalo]

28. We all make our choices

I choose to not allow those who took advantage of my trust to alter my behavior. The problem is theirs; not mine.

[WindRavenX]

30. I'm sorry guys

I'm sorry I dumped this on you.

[jobycom]

34. Not needed

We all need support now and then. Just lean on 60,000 of your closest friends.

[mermaid]

35. Don't Be Sorry - We All Need A Shoulder Sometimes

The main reason I am asexual is because I puke at the idea of being with another woman (hey, now, some of my best friends are lesbians, but I couldn't do it) and I can't trust men.

Men have hurt me, fucked me over, cheated on me, used and abused me...once, I even had a guy who never bothered to tell me he was FUCKING HIV POSITIVE!!! Thank God I found out, and before aything serious developed between us. But the last thing I asked him was...how long was he intending on keeping this information from me?!!?

I'm sorry you are hurting. I don't really know what happened, but, from the few clues you've given, it sounds like you got some man trouble. Well, honey, let me tell you what, you are worth more than whatever guy screwed you over. Most men not only HAVE dicks, but they also ARE dicks. It sucks, but that is reality. Very few decent guys out there. I have already resigned myself to a life of being single. The one and only guy I could ever trust...was far too close for us to ever be romantically involved. I saw him as an older brother. Still do. He's now, finally, married off, for his first time, at age 45.

Anyways, here's a :hug: and a shoulder to cry on. Never know, some day I may need a shoulder myself. Hang in there, girl...you're better than whoever it was who screwed you over!

[jobycom]

36. Nothing to do with gender

There just aren't enough decent people out there. And there is just some flaw in human design which seems to require that decent people--of whichever gender--have to be drawn to those who don't deserve them.

You say you don't like the idea of being with another woman--try it, and you'll discover they can hurt you just as badly. It isn't just men.

[leftofthedial]

31. love is risk

I'm pretty broken right now too. I'm so sorry for you.

We try to give. We try to do the right thing. We put someone else above ourselves and get repaid with pain. It hurts. The only thing that helps the pain is time to heal and the balm of love when it is good.

[jobycom]

32. The honest people

are the ones who feel like you and me right now. The dishonest ones are having a blast.

I swear I wish I could tell you how much your pain right now affects me. I've been going through a really tough time lately, and even though I don't know you, the other night I read one of your posts on a picture thread. The way you talked about the person I'm assuming has done this to you moved me-- I genuinely felt better knowing that someone could care as much as you did, could show such patience and trust. That's what your ability to love, to care, does--it touches people who do appreciate it. It makes the world a better place.

I don't know what happened, I can only guess. I'm so sorry for you. I truly am. It's not fair that you can make someone 1000 miles away feel better and yet you have to suffer so. There are good people out there. Really good people, who can be friends, not just romantic interests. You'll find them. They'll be the ones like you, I think. Maybe they'll touch you, and you'll understand what I'm saying now, about you.

I know none of this eases the hurt you are feeling one little bit, but... I don't know, I had to say it. You seem like a very special person. I hope one day you realize that's a reward in itself.

Good luck.

[progmom]

33. Hey chickie

Don't give up.
Some people take advantage of kind people.

But you touch way more people than you can ever realize.

And eventually, you will find someone who will love you and be kind to you the way you are kind to other people.

Hang in there. :hug:

Don't give up on love and kindness. When everyone else lets you down, at least you can know that you are a decent and wonderful person.

:hug:

[WindRavenX]

37. thank you

It just seems like nothing is going right for me right now at all.
I have no family.
I have no stable ground to stand on.

[Nostradammit]

39. I think I've been where you are right now WindRavenX

and I almost didn't survive it, but a big reservoir of "spiritual" strength that I didn't know I had opened up and kept me going in spite of myself.

Most everyone I know is suffering from a bone-crushing loneliness, and it compels them to act in all manner of unhelpful ways. Most people look out for themselves first and foremost because they feel that no one else will. But there are acts of immense courage and selflessness occuring every single second.

I wish you strength.

[Radical Activist]

38. I bet I'm more cynical and bitter than you are...so there!

;)

I can relate.