This job so has to work out, you have no idea.

[YellowRubberDuckie]

I start this job at a mortgage company on Monday, and it has to work out. I cannot live with my mother anymore. I swear to God. This morning, she asked me if there was enough milk in the fridge. And I said, "No, there's only..." And then she screams, "FINE THEN I'D DRINK THE GODDAMMED SHIT IF IT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!" She didn't even let me finish and say the pint she got was only half full. I swear to God this shit has got to stop. If she was getting pissed of for valid reasons, then I don't think I'd hate her nearly as much. :cry:
So the reason I post this and tell you is for good thoughts and prayers for you guys. It worked once before for me to get the job...I just hope that with your thoughts and prayers I can get over the 90 day hump and become a permanent employee. I have got to get out of here...and never come back.
Duckie

[Left Is Write]

1. Good luck! I hope it works for you.

[BikeWriter]

2. Wishing you tons of luck!

[kick-ass-bob]

3. just remember, try to not bring your home problems

to work. It'll show in your attitude - think of the goal at the end of the line - and not the "getting away from mom" - that is too negative.

Think of "living on my own, having my own kitchen," etc - positive stuff.

Good luck.

[YellowRubberDuckie]

7. Not to worry...

Once I'm away from this town, I become a lot different. I'd never bring my home life to work. I think I'm just too happy to be the hell away from here. Thanks for the advice.
Duckie

[Lavender Brown]

4. Good luck, Duckie

I hope it all works out for you. Having your own place will be great for your peace of mind and well being.

[MissB]

5. Positive thoughts

heading your way! Good luck.

[Heidi]

6. Sending you light.

And sending your mom some light, too. (Sounds like she needs to lighten up.)

[demnan]

8. What's her real problem anyway?

Does she think you aren't trying, or is she just menapausal? Is there anyone else in the house you can talk with to help smooth things over till you can move? It's a tough world out there and sometimes having enough money to go independent takes time. I'd try to get to the bottom of the problem if I could, but to be fair, I don't know your situation.

I wish you luck with your job though, :) and something tells me her anger doesn't have anything to do with the milk.

[YellowRubberDuckie]

9. There's no one else in the house.

And I only have to wait a month to make sure the job is going to work out, because Skip already has the money saved up for deposits and such. Anyway, her problem is that I'm a sad reminder that I'm alive and her precious first born isn't. Don't get me wrong, I loved my sister, but I didn't exist when she was around. Mom once told me, "Why couldn't it have been you instead of your sister?" And she was stone cold sober (for once), and I haven't had much use for her after that. No matter how good I am or how much better my life goes, she's always there to shit all over it. You'd think I'd be used to it by now. But it just never gets easier. God I miss my Dad.
Duckie

[demnan]

10. I am so sorry!

There is nothing worse than living with a mean alcoholic! Hopefully your job will go very well and you can move soon. I sure hope so. Sorry you lost your Dad! :hug:

[lavenderdiva]

11. duckie, I'm soo, so sorry that your Mom said those hurtful words to you..

Its very hard to get them out of your head once they are uttered. Before my mom passed away, she and I had a run in, and she said, "your father and I tried for 5 years to have you, and look what we got". That moment is forever frozen in time for me, and still gets me upset when I think about it. While I know she was alcoholic, and very upset at the time, and I can try to rationalize and understand her problems, at the heart of it, it hurts. It wounded me deeply, and I imagine your mom's words did the same to you.

I don't have any nifty phrases for you to ponder to make it seem better. Only lots of hugs and understanding for what you are going through. Your new job sounds like a much-needed blessing, where you will meet new people, and be exposed to new surroundings and energy. How wonderful! I will be praying for you and your newfound success!

Sending many, many hugs your way... :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[MissB]

13. You never really forget the hurtful words

I have a parent like that. I live about as far away from him as I can.

Just remember that it is her problem. Don't make her problem your own. You probably already know that, but it is worth repeating. It took me many years to realize that I didn't have to take his problems with me around in life.

[Mutley]

12. Good luck Duckie!

I feel your pain!