I feel lost...

[Sannum]

Every day, I hate my job more. Today, the corporate people came and criticized me for *the horror* wearing a dark charcoal colored skirt because everything else was at the cleaners. We are supposed to wear black, but honestly, who gives a damn anyway. There was hardly enough of a difference. It was about an inch below my knee and I was wearing black stockings, but apparently this was just a terrible infraction. God. I am more well dressed than the people who work there and a great majority of the population, so at this point, who really cares? I am just keeping this until something better comes along, which I hope is soon.

I should be designing the merchandise, not selling it. I could do a better job than the people doing it now. This isn't ego at all, it is the fact that i know more about fashion and what sells than many people who think they do. It isn't something you learn, it is something you just know.

I just know I can't stand this for very much longer.

I don't know what to do. I need to be involved in something creative and challenging and something that I enjoy. There has to be something out there that fits my personality and talents. I have knowledge of so many things, and so many interests. I need to find people who will respect me and I need to find an outlet for all of the ideas I have. At this moment, I am designing my own clothes and choosing fabrics because everything in stores is poor quality, trendy looking garbage. I like classic lines and classic fabrics and colors. I need an outlet for this, and I feel like I am boxed in. I am crying over the most minor things and I am just so frustrated! The last time I really enjoyed working was when I was volunteering for Kerry/Edwards. I felt like I was appreciated and doing something worthwhile. Now I am just clicking in time and cashing a paycheck.

I think I am going to take up painting. I feel like I need to create. Not that anyone would appreciate what I have to offer, I just need to do something.

[Floogeldy]

1. You'd better start following the work dress code

Or you might get fired.

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[Sannum]

4. I was...

I couldn't tell the difference until i was out in the light of day, then it wasn't time to go back. Everything I own is black, so I have been following it.

[Floogeldy]

6. Good

I'm glad you'll keep your job.

B-)

[Sannum]

8. Frankly, at this point...

I don't care, lol. I am that demoralised and depressed.

[imenja]

7. I have that problem with stains

I sometimes don't see them until I'm already on my way. No one would mistake me for a fashion designer.

People don't realize the hazards of being well endowed. Everything ends up on the front of your shirt.

[imenja]

2. Audition for project runway

They are going to have a second season. I saw a blurb that they are taking auditions for designers.

Follow your bliss, as Joseph Cambell says. Do what you love and go for it. You're one up on me, because you know what your passion is.
I'm sorry your job is so depressing but persevere and you'll end up doing what you love.

[Robeson]

3. Damn, sounds like you're living the movie Brazil......

...wish I could help, but you have my sympathy, and empathy....

[NightTrain]

5. Been there, done that.

I've lost count of how many soul-destroying jobs I've had during my 22 years in the workforce.

At the moment, I'm unemployed and broke, but you know what I'm not? Obligated to kiss any motherfucker's ass! :bounce:

[Sannum]

9. LOL

Tommorow, I am going to print out my resume, along with several portfolios of my work (interior, etc) and take them to design firms.

I know of a hat designer that is actually interested, or has been in the past with my ideas and suggestions. Maybe I should send him my designs as well. I know I have the talent and ability, but it is just the fear I have. I think everyone thinks I am a horrible person.

[hfojvt]

10. Good luck with that

Myself, I just hate working full time. Every since I got out of college and into the workforce, working full time has felt like a life-killer. For five days, you do little else but work, then for two days that fly by you shop and do housework and cut the grass and bang, it is Thursday again. (I work Thursday through Monday, so I hate Thursdays).
I just went from part-time to full time back in May of last year and the extra 18 hours a week feel like they are sucking my life away. As far as creating, I would agree, first make sure you are satisfying an audience of one, yourself, and do not expect more than that. At least I have never found a wider audience for my poetry or my music, or even my baking, and I am fine with that. The joy is in the process, not in the applause.