Here's hoping I will make it.

[coloradodem2005]

Well, I am trying to get my grade up in my stats class for grad school. I am about to finish the paperwork for financial aid and application. I contacted three old professors two days ago to ask for letters of recommendation and heard back from one. I hope I get my grade up in this class. I hope that those other two professors contact me. I hope that I will be accepted for grad school and financial aid. I know that I have come off as depressed. I worked for a long time to be a teacher and was screwed out of that. The goal is now to get going again. It killed me to be insulted the way I was when I lost my student teaching. It killed me that I had to move back in with my parents. I want to start controlling my life. I feel that this may be the first legitimate step to doing so. Here's hoping I get in. If not here's hoping that something else will work out for me.

[Mikimouse]

1. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you...

The key to grad. school is not so much the details, but the way you approach the problem. I am sure that you will do well, and will send good thoughts to you.:yourock:

[coloradodem2005]

2. Thanks!!!

:hi:

[SlavesandBulldozers]

3. dont worry about it

im in a similar situation, but step back and think about it. Wouldn't you rather have all these questions in your life than one big straight, sure, track? These challenges are what make things interesting. I know, "interesting" doesnt always translate to "entertaining" or even "endurable" sometimes, but everything will work out.

Always keep your options open, if you get in great. But realize that once you get in you will replace this set of woes with a new set - deadlines, expectations, etc. If you don't get in - there's plenty of opportunity doing other things until you can, as well as woes. Just go with the flow.

[noahmijo]

4. Good luck friend

I plan on applying for Grad school as well for Management Information Systems for the next academic year starting in Spring 05.

Although I'm 22 and unlike you I haven't really been socked by the real world in its entirety there's always one constant truth in the common goals you and I have.

That is it takes endurance. It's all about endurance. Making the choice to move back in with your parents, recover from getting screwed as a teacher, it was all a test of endurance. Even after that you've survived with your mind intact.

Now you're ready to move on, what didn't kill you made you strong.

You WILL get in. You WILL succeed. You've come this far, don't let yourself run out of stamina before you hit the finish line.

~N~

[coloradodem2005]

5. Moving back in with my parents was not exactly a choice.

Unless you count living on the streets as an alternative. As for teaching, what happened to me was because these people were petty small minded, evil people. I don't know how strong I am. The problem is I don't feel like I had come very far. Most of that has to do with the psychological beating I took during 2003. Things only seem better now. But considering last year, that does not say much. I just don't trust anything right now. I hope that things will get better and I can get away from my parents and have some space again. But things just seem too far fetched. What happened may not have killed me, but a huge part of me died and I am trying to move on, but I am still paying for what happened every day.

[noahmijo]

6. Can you tell me (us) what happened exactly?

[coloradodem2005]

9. Well...

...I had gone through an education program at CU Boulder. I made it all the way to student teaching. They pulled me, not because I did something that I should not have done. They just told me that I was not ready. When I told others, they said that that is why I was student teaching was to get ready. Mainly, for one reason or another, they decided that they did not want to help me succeed so they told me that I was a failure. Believe me. This is what had happened. I did what I had to do to finish my B.A. in mathematics. That was not much. Then I graduated with that. I also had been looking for some good work and could not find any. I just did not have any choice but to move out of the apartment I had that year in college and back home.

[MissMarple]

7. Good luck, sweetheart.

:hug:

[Kool Kitty]

8. Think positive, you can do anything.

I'll keep you in my thoughts and I am sure that you will succeed. :hug:

[Scooter24]

10. In some states..

...you don't need to go to grad school to teach at the elementary, middle, or high school level. There is such a shortfall for good teachers, that they are allowing prospects to get "in the door" through emergency waivers.

But don't let that keep you from Grad school. Just trying to point out an alternative. Also, when I went to get letters of recommendation, I made private appointments with all of them to outline my goals and how they can help. They were impressed and I got my letters as well as a few contacts.

As a current law student, I understand how stressful it could be. Hang in there, don't overwhelm yourself and make sure you research all options. I wish you the best :)

[coloradodem2005]

11. I don't want to teach.

I want to do statistical analysis. This is not about teaching anymore. After the way I was treated, I refuse to ever give of myself like that again.