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Edited on Mon Nov-14-05 11:46 AM by HereKittyKitty
My brother is a U.S. Marine. I am not the greatest fan in the world of war by ANY means, but I have been proud of him since the day he joined. It started when he realized that his life wasn't really going anywhere and he "needed someone to kick his butt" (his words).
Now, 11 years later, my brother has changed in every way, and all of it for the better. He has made the Marines his career. Where there once was an irresponsible, surly young man who had no goals (and with whom I never got along) there is now a dedicated husband and father who treats everyone with respect and has a sense of honor and duty in every aspect of his life (And we have developed the kind of brother/ sister relationship we should have had in the first place). The Marines have been wonderful for my brother and he has given them dedicated service and unfailing loyalty.
When Clinton was in office, my brother voted for him (96- He wasn't old enough to vote yet in 92). He has never talked politics much, but at that time he felt he could at least say a little. Now that * is in office, he never says a political word.
Now my brother is preparing to go to Iraq at the end of January. I cannot describe my feelings. I am worried. I love him. If he were going into ANY war I would be worried about him. But this is different.
If he were going to Afghanistan, I would be worried and sad, but not angry. But I am ANGRY!
I don't talk to him about this because he is happy to go. I understand that this is not necessarily due to his own feelings about this particular war, but due to his sense of duty. As a Marine, he professes to be proud to fight and die for his country and proud to do whatever is ordered. That's what they do.
I have a hard time personally with this- Not with HIS dedication, but with reconciling my support and pride for my brother with my anger about him being put into this situation.
It is an honorable thing when a Service member dies in the line of duty. If something happens to him, I will never feel that he is less honorable than if he had fought in the most morally justifiable war. But I have a problem with him being asked to put his life on the line unnecessarily. The current administration is forcing young men and women to make the ultimate sacrifice as if it's no big deal to them, and I'm angry.
I have a million emotions going through me right now.
They are coming home for Thanksgiving, and that is the last time I will see my brother before he leaves for Iraq. I am so scared of the thought that it may be the last time I see him alive, and I just don't know how to handle it.
I'm sorry I'm so incoherent right now- I'm feeling very emotional at the moment.
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