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It's the only thing I want to see.
I was just a waiting wife during Vietnam. So the Swiftboat stuff hasn't gotten to me so much -- I did my "reliving the Vietnam era" during the whole run-up to the war, and the war itself including the quagmire.
I literally couldn't believe the pain from that era I still harbored. It was also bigger, as if it weren't just MY (personal) pain I was feeling, but more a piece of the whole country's pain back then. Ore maybe I was just seeing it from a more mature vantage point, capable of seeing the big picture.
It was so horrible. Families were torn apart by the dissent, and of course all those beautiful young men (mostly men) lost to us forever. Then there was the tarnished innocence when we learned, finally (finally! though some have never yet been able to admit it), that the war was a lie, just like this one, tho this one was worse, IMO. And all the ruined lives of the vets who did return -- the physically wounded, the spiritually and emotionally scarred forever. Unspeakable pain and costs.
My heart goes out to those for whom the Swiftboat shit is pushing buttons and tweaking old scars because .... well, reliving just MY little piece of it has been tough enough.
One of the worst things for me was the realization, with great horror and sadness, that we really didn't learn our lessons in Vietnam. And that means (oh, I can barely say it)... that means that those 58,280 deaths may have been in vain after all. The sacrilege of that is unbearable to me.
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