Reply #29: It is sad that she feels this way, but experiencing the violent end to a loved one's life

[CTyankee]

is often not ennobling. We are not alluva sudden granted sainthood because our family member was suddenly, shockingly, killed. We are angry, vengeful, or just looking for the answers. I am weary of this, as a family member who has, as you have, experienced this kind of violence. But I am also aware that it can take you over, in anger and grief, to an extent you never thought you could feel. I wish it could go away. It hasn't.