Reply #32: Put that anger to work

[Tsiyu]

At your age, you can do so much. You say your anger is at women, but my anger is directed at ANY human who tries to take power from another. Men are as guilty here as women are.

The way our society has been structured - the "single family unit" held up as the supreme role model - is so dangerous for men, women and children. It leads to isolation as you've described. It keeps human beings locked away from each other, staring at propaganda on the tube, afraid to go out and meet the neighbor, to "get involved."

I have been one of those isolated women. I know now that I have to get out in the world if I am going to find the support I need.

One day, around ten years ago, I was feeling as you are, but I was angry at men. They all seemed like such stupid, fucked-up beings to me at that time, always making the choices that would hurt someone or destroy something or someone's sense of self. I felt surrounded by the most negative male energy (this was in Forsyth County, GA, mind) and I honestly felt I would never make it out of there alive. I was despondent and full of indignation. I wanted to scream at every male on the planet, "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU ASSHOLES? WHY MUST YOU RAPE AND TORMENT AND STEAL AND LIE AND THEN TELL EVERYONE ELSE YOU ARE THE CHOSEN "LEADERS' OF MORALITY? YOU HAVE NO MORALITY!!!!"

I was so disgusted with men trying to tell me they had all the answers when they were fucking up my world left and right with their immorality. By that I mean the sexism, racism, homophobia, xenophobia etcetera etcetera of many of the men in my world.

To calm myself, I went for a drive in the country. I was ready to explode. It was a beautiful Spring day and before long, as I meandered for miles, I began to notice something odd. Every last person I saw out and about was a female.

Now, I was driving past country homes from the shack to the mansion and every trailer and farmhouse in between. But everywhere. Women. Tending gardens. In the sandbox with the toddler. Riding a horse. Two teenage girls walking hand in hand along the road waved. I saw another woman on a tractor hauling hay to her cattle. A grey-haired woman waved from her flower-laden porch.

I didn't see one single man! It was bizarre. I joked to myself about maybe dying and waking up in Utopia, but in reality, the women I saw just showed me that I was surrounded by a whole lot of female energy, too. It was there when I needed it. I just had to ask.

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