Reply #35: I understand, sort of.

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Some years back I was betrayed by a friend ( at least I thought she was). Because of her lies, I lost my job, my house, my savings, everything but my family. Because of them, I managed to put the pieces of my life back together, and now I have far more, materially, than I did before the back-stabbing bitch did me in. I mean I had done nothing wrong, and especially, I had not harmed her in any way.

However, enough self-pity. The point is that when you have nothing left to lose, it is amazingly freeing. So, I do understand your "surrender" bit, I think.

But, I have met the "bogeyman", and next time I see one, I shall take up the sword of righteousness and "slay" it before it gets me, or somebody else.