Reply #56: love

[sweetheart]

Yes, i "thought" about death and the transitory nature of life
as a kid, but the thoughts did not register quite like an experience
on LSD back at college, where i consciously left my body and was looking
down at it. I realized that there are profound awakenesses in life,
and that "knowledge" must be awakeness.

I became a student of various traditions of meditation, amongst them swami
muktananda, Rama - Dr. Lenz, Da Free John - called "Adida" today.
And profound meditation is like death, an erasure of the physical consciousness
and its history and concepts of self, and a re-forming of those after the
meditation.

But i dislike using the word meditation as it has been burdened in the west with
"doing" meanings, like sitting, and repeating words or something, whereas i
equate meditation as profound stopping. And after every stop, life is
poignantly the same, poignantly different, death in every step and breathing.

Death today, death tommorrow, lovers meet, lovers part. The ineffable spirit
of life glistening radiant in every single moment.

peace,