Reply #19: imagine the Buddha realizing that at 32 because his father protected

[sam sarrha]

him from all the bad things in life, he had a child and wife, and he was a prince accustomed to only the finest things in life, never seeing illness or anyone old, never seeing suffering... what a shock. ..he soon left on his path to saving his family and all mankind from the suffering of cyclical rebirth, old age, sickness and death.

your story is fascinating,.. you got the same realization as the Buddha without any of that annoying meditation..

my first memory in life is my father beating the hell out of me, i had been viciously beaten and was on the floor, i remember seeing the heals of his shoes walking away on the wooden floor and he was complaining how bad his hand hurt.. i remember thinking how stupid that sounded..

life was such a daily trauma death just got lost among all the things i had no control over.. i remember squatting and looking at a dead bird and the ants were eating it.. i am autistic and perceive visually, i dont connect emotions to pictures,, life has just been one long bad movie and i just have to sit there and take it.