Reply #1: You don't realize you have the ability to to what you want.

[Metta]

Hasn't anyone told you that? Just ask your favorite saints and deities for whatever that is, with the qualifier "in a manner --- can handle," or something like that otherwise they'll feel attacked from the enslaught of good vibes. For real. Just look at the middle east. Lots of prayers resulted in war.

You can also ask that the light go where it's needed. If you say "Thank you," you grease the wheels in making that happen.

Best regards.