Reply #4: Leaving the body through Aperture Dreams

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A little background: about a month ago I asked for any higher powers who could hear me to help me project. I had immediate results.

Two recent dreams which have had a profound impact on me: The first was a fairly standard (for me) cave dream: some fellow cavers and I were deep underground. They were coaxing me up a small passage that got tighter as it went higher. I’m not claustrophobic, but it got so tight that my head got stuck and I became acutely uncomfortable.

Someone who had gone up before me was urging me to continue on, but it was very strange in that hole, and my perceptions were all in disarray. Everything seemed upside-down and inside-out. It was so much tighter than anything I could fit through intact.

And that’s the crux of the matter: you can’t fit through intact.

I’ve had this dream many, many times in my life, perhaps a thousand different variants of this same experience. It’s all very familiar to me. And I always get stuck. Until last night.

This time there was no pretense to caving. They–I have little idea who “they” were–showed me something I interpreted as a black box and asked me to put my head inside it. (Yeah, it sounds like a freaking UFO abduction, doesn’t it? Ha-ha.) I did so, and instantly encountered the too-tight tunnel constricting my head, the same as all those cave dreams. At their urging, I pushed myself in further and the disorientation became extreme. It was a kind of mental nausea akin to having one’s head underwater. Everything was upside-down and very fuzzy.

I quickly realized two things: 1) I could get through, but my BODY could not, and 2) though some part of my mind could finish the trip through the tunnel, it was VERY STRANGE out there on the other side of it. My mind would not emerge unchanged. My brain already felt scrambled.

My vision improved as I pushed myself toward the far end and I saw some people there. It was somehow explained to me that I was looking at a scene from my childhood. I wasn’t particularly interested in it (I was not lucid), and pulled back out of the tunnel.

They showed me to another tunnel, said that it was very popular, a service of some sort. I stuck my head in but it was the same unnerving constriction, and I indicated I was tired. I saw something through this one, too, but I have no idea what it was.

I awoke directly and put on a Hemi-Sync CD through the headphones. After counting down, there was a vibrant explosion of white light which danced before my “eyes.” As it faded, I saw that the tiny star that sits so remote in my inner sky was grown quite large, and was pulsating and swaying. It was now a fiery white ring.

I had to leave it at that. I was too excited to proceed. I’m still excited about finally getting to the other end of the “tunnel.” If I had to guess, I’d say I’ve probably had a thousand Aperture dreams over my life. At long last, I finally got through. Next time, I’ll jump in headfirst, without hesitation. You stick your head in and you let your body go. Kinda like the hokey-pokey, only harder. I'm hoping there's lucidity on the other end.

I hope all this wins me the Craziest Dream of the Year Award.