Reply #19: For me it feels more like a deep distrust of the Universe.....

[DemExpat]

not so much of myself, for in this issue of self-love/acceptance in my life I have done a lot of work and have made great strides.

Past experiences - in baby-childhood as well as I think past life victim stuff - have me seemingly imprinted that no matter what I do or feel, something more powerful will call the shots at any time - usually when I least expect it.

And in our world we see this all around us happening all of the time! :nuke:

This might also have to do with a large ego and fear of loss of control.....and need for a next step in practicing trust of greater powers....just not sure how to go about this as religious trust and reverence are not for me, and Zen meditation got me to a certain point but not in this department..... I guess my biggest belief is bottom line belief in Love as the highest good, but I unfortunately also "believe" in, and fear, great evil.....

But yes, I really see how energy and charged feelings have such expanding effect on the environment outside and within ourselves.

DemEx