Reply #19: Just recently ..

[Why Syzygy]

I've been experiencing something similar. My state feels like I'm dreaming. It was very prevalent today at work. At times I even felt that we were in the "past" and this was all a dream of what had already happened. I was in a good mood since I've been off sick with bronchitis. I got my self esteem back. This makes me realize how draining that place can be.

(sorry I always roam off topic) .. I'm beginning to get the impression that the owner really wants everyone to disown themselves and belong to her. I had her change my Friday scheduled hours and she was not a happy puppy. She doesn't like anyone telling her what to do . her words. Everyone else gets the schedule they want and I'm entitled to the same treatment. This is an old role for me; the black sheep, problem child ... I can sense those energies and I aim to avoid them. But anyway .. the dream like state seemed to calm me and give me a thick skin, which is needed around there.

Due to my personal belief system, I think I am walking on the divide, touching a higher dimension. It is there and it is obvious there is sooo much more. I'm only scratching the surface. Sometimes I also sense someone very close to me.

I'm really digging the revival of energy and spiritual dynamics. So many people are paying attention to it. DU has a fraction of practitioners. The whole experience gives much to think about and speculate. I think the woman at work who caused so much trouble for me is becoming denser and darker. This morning my co-worker was stressed because he had been working with her all week. He said, "she is MEAN . just MEAN .. she is mean to everyone. I know. She has always been mean to me. He was almost in tears because he thought I was going to get on the rag train when I mentioned one of the orders wasn't marked correctly. He made a snap and I ignored it and went into the cooler. When I came out, was when he practically begged me not to be mean. That is so sad. I assured him I was in a great mood and he wouldn't be getting any problems from me. This guy has his own small landscape company. The jobs aren't small, but the quantity is. He is a perfect example of what happens when they torment someone constantly. Quality suffers when someone is being undermined all the time. There was some snotty stuff aimed at me, but it didn't even come near. I don't need it. I consider the shop a safe place. The worst that could happen would be to lose my job. I'm not worried about that. My concern is to learn as much as I can, bring home some bacon, and enjoy my life. But as far as developing, it is also a pretty perfect place. If they want me to play the bad girl role, I'll decline. I don't think they can keep it alive without my participation.

See all that s.t.u.f.f. I wrote? It is so just the tiny tip of an iceberg. There are so many levels and most of us are still material oriented. .... I'm way sleepy and would go on but I'm afraid I would embarass myself :blush: ..

Please fee free to discuss your experiences. It looks like a lot of folks have some form of this.
I, for one, would enjoy hearing more as things progress.

Thanks for your OP.