Reply #157: I didn't word my post very well- I don't think being concerned with

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the spirit world is wrong - just that I had had MY fill of some of this stuff. Especially the Michael things my hypnotist directed me to. I think that was my own personal reaction - but you're right - I still come to this forum so I'm not completely secular and I still go to psychics - so I think I overstated the fact. If what I said came off as some sort of judgment - I was wrong. However - FOR ME - I think I need to learn to trust my own judgment more and rely less on tarot cards and psychics - because I think those things may be too much of a crutch FOR ME. For years I have had problems with unhappiness and I think I need to live in the "here and now" more to maybe address that. That's the thing that is weird about the meeting with the council of elders - it was very specific to my situation. (And surprising what they wanted from me!) They wanted me to be a little more self-centered - which to me is immoral. It was definitely a wake-up call.

I also think when you're under hypnosis they show you what you need to know to help you. I think by showing me that the brother I support was an "old soul" was designed to make me more understanding of him. Also, when I told him he wanted this to be his last life - he seemed more determined to get the most out of it. At the time I was very angry at my other brother who has the drug problem. His spirit said to me - "Don't hate me - I'm really am a nice person." (At the time I was thinking he wasn't a good person - drug addict behavior can be pretty dark!) And I was having problems with my career. I always get too involved in workplace drama by sticking up for the guy/girl about to be fired. They HATED that! They told me "you always put yourself in the line of fire so you sabotage your career." My hypnotist said I was almost certainly a server soul (from the Michael teachings) and she said these types of problems are common for server souls. So their message to me was more about being happy here on Earth. They also thought I was trying too hard to win "brownie" points in heaven which kept me from having many experiences I should be having in my lives. They hated that too - seemed to be telling me to let loose and live a little. Again - that's a message that is specific to me. And I cried throughout the session - but in "heaven" I was actually almost angry because I didn't agree with their values. Very strange!! They also showed me my book of lives and I was only 1/2 way through - and I remember being crushed to think I was only 1/2 done!!! I think I am "stalled" in my growth and they were upset about that.