Reply #2: wheeee!

[FirstLight]

I was *just* thinking this morning...

"okay, it's gonna be June 1...six months past my Bday, I have GOT to get ON it and stop these bad health habits... "

I have been really upset by the last few pics friends have posted on FB because I can't BELIEVE how big i have gotten, i still feel and see myself as my normal size. Not to mention, female health stuff that needs to be addressed and may be partly responsible for the weight gain. ...But I can't do anything about any of it till i stop abusing my body by smoking and drinking like a teenager.

so how to channel my goodly saturn influences to make this happen?

if I am going to have surgery by july, i guess it's a good time to start now in detox and cleansing
But what sucks is that every morning i wake up with a new resolve to get back on track, but by evening i am in the same place as always...beer or wine in hand, smoking and watching tv. hypnotized, CHOOSING to 'zone out'

Is there some kind of 'magic bullet' to channel at this time to have saturn the taskmaster help me get straightened out?

lol
ya, i know, stupid question