Reply #23: I haven't retreated from everyone and everything like this in years

[Shallah Kali]

it was like months long flashback to my teens or right after my Dad died. I am working to fight the urge to retreat like a snail into it's shell and try to go numb again. I am having more moments when I surface from the depression long enough to feel more normal, less in a fog of pain, and then I can see the cycle and know I will come out of it then I go down again. Oh and I am pretty sure I am hypoglycemic as it gets so much worse if I don't eat at little every couple of hours. I used to be eternally hungry so that no matter how much or what I ate I never felt full. Worked on that in therapy and started not feeling hungry all the time. right now I am confused as I am not really hungry, it is more like a feeling that I will be Hungry and really want to eat in an hour or so, but now need to have a snack to perk myself up.

Thank you all for caring. Thank you.