Reply #19: I did something I have NEVER done in my life

[meganmonkey]

to deal with similar feelings, Ripley.

On Sunday morning, after several nights of drinking and smoking (more than usual, anyway). I went to church, all by myself, all for myself. I really did. Growing up, we never went to church. My sister and her hubby are active in their local Unitarian Universalist church and I went to a service with them once a few years agowhen visiting, so I knew it was a decent place.
I woke up Sunday and realized I had lost faith. Not in 'God' or some such silliness, but in PEOPLE. And that realization just killed me. So I went to the nearest UU church, and it honestly helped a LOT. I may even go back someday.
It worked for me.

On edit: at the moment I'm sipping a drink and I just had some of that..er...spinach. Helps a lot too. ;)