Reply #102: I hate myself.

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It negatively impacts every aspect of my life. I am overweight, and I am terribly self-conscious about it, and yes, other people treat me differently because of it (I know, because I wasn't always overweight). I am one of those people who would give up years of their life to be skinny. In a heartbeat I would do that. What's the point of living 60 years if you are a social pariah?

Now, I did not feel that way as a teenager. I had curves, but I was still the "pretty one" in my circle of friends. I never lacked for dates, and I had a terrific self image. But then, standards were a little different then. I thought I was smoking hot at a size 6-8. If I were a teenager today, I would probably think I was fat at that size and be dieting and ashamed.