Reply #7: Hey, I'm glad you went shrink on me

[kimi]

Control has been an issue in my life since I was a kid. Dysfunctional abusive family, married to abusive guy(s), ongoing personal s&*t that I feel like I need to control. It's so damn scary to realize that there are *things* out there beyond my control, I'm not used to it and not comfortable with it, but have to accept.

My initial reaction is just what you warn me against, I think - to stop trusting and stop being open to others. That's something I'll have to work on, cause this experience has just shaken me, really. I do take comfort in knowing that it'll get better, eventually. I'm grateful that people here are so generous with their thoughts on this, so, thank you.

ETA: "being Zen with it", I must look into this. I like the sound of that, it sounds very peaceful. :)