My dog had to be put to sleep today. It was so fucking horrible.

[LeftyAndProud60]

The closest person to me that died was my father a few yrs ago. And that was difficult, but for some reason this seems just as bad. Maybe becuz an animal is really helpless. She was my responsibility and I let her down. She always had so much energy, then 2wks ago she began not to eat and drink lots of water. We put her on some medicine but that didn't work. She just kept getting worse. Then 2day I went outside and it was like she went into shock. She was breathing hard and unable to move. Her eyes were wide open and wouldn't close. I'm a grown man and can't stop crying.