Reply #52: To everyone who read, sent thoughts and posted - pls read

[OhioBlue]

Thank you all so much. Last night, I was an emotional mess. I'm not sure, but I think the fact that I just had my first baby in July and my cousin and I were so happy to be pregnant together again. (When she had her son, I got pregnant but miscarried) I think all of it just swirled around in my head and overwhelmed me. I was also desperate to just be able to "fix" things for my cousin and make it all better.

Today, we had the memorial service, my cousin got to come home and I think we all got some closure. I am glad that she doesn't have to go through the hell that she went through for the last couple of weeks any more. I am also terribly sad that we will never get to see the twins grow up. I do have to say that when I saw them today, it really did register with me just how far from viability 3 weeks really is.

Anyway, I kept telling myself that I was posting to send positive thoughts to her to give her strength, but the truth is that posting here was really helpful to me. Thank you all for this.