Reply #21: i hear and feel it to

[usedtobesick]

you just can' t even put words to it when your sitting in the middle of it. I have not been here this time but was there the first time and also it Somalia, it's the look on the faces of kids and mothers, the horror and pain. even the looks on the faces of your team around you. You can not leave after seeing it unaffected. it leaves you angry/andor/ cold inside. Now that we are forced to watch it everyday on TV and now the results of this senseless slaughter on all sides, walks in our lives as faces of friends, relatives and people we see on our streets each day. There is such a seance of hopelessness and anger. I still don't sleep at night for days on end. But you need some kind of anchor and help to draw you back to the you live now, here, today and find a way to get through it. I am sure others will tell you the same thing. Find some help.