I feel pretty stupid, could use a hug or something...

[leftist_rebel1569]

(warning: long and boring and probably not worth your time)

not like there's anything new about that...but anyways, I asked a girl out today and she said no. She wanted to "just be friends". That, and I only had a crush on her since....yesterday. It kinda hurts a bit, if you haven't guessed.

I really don't have many details on that, since it all happened so quickly, but there have been a few other things that are really starting to bug me. First of all, it seems like i'm not really getting any support from my friends anymore, it seems more like pity nowadays. I think they're just getting tired of me bitching about everything (which I really don't that often, only when stuff really bugs me). I even don't like going online and talking about it, but I don't think i'll be able to fall asleep tonight if I don't get this out of my system. So, anyways, I think they really just don't care anymore. It doesn't seem like anyone does anymore, except me...

Also, another thing bugging me is that I think i've met my dream girl. She's such a great person...I thought about it one day, and her name just popped into my head. She's really fun to talk to, really supportive, and really accepting of who I am. We have a few other things in common, but the thing is...she lives hundreds and hundreds of miles away. I met her online, actually (not through DU though...). It just didn't seem fair at all, it was almost like god was just teasing me or mocking me or something. I can't actually go and meet her, not having any money to travel and all, so I don't know if I ever will see her in person. I was able to forget about it for a while, and then I started listening to this Emo band called "Something Corporate", and they had this one song that reminded me so much of her, I almost want to cry whenever I hear it. And now, I would give anything...ANYTHING...just to see her and tell her how I feel...(it's all come back, damn my sensitive side)

So, anyways, thanks for listening (or reading, however you see it) and I could use a hug or something...