Reply #56: did you ever think

[AnIndependentTexan]

If you have real questions then all you have to do is ask real questions? The reason why I'm not afraid of posting is because a lot of people don't know the difference. You've also confused who I am. I'll try to explain

First I'm not a crossdresser because clothes are not what turn me on. I do not get a kick out of dressing up. I have been dressed in female clothes before, but I felt more complete then anything. I can be in male or female clothes and feel the same way I do.

I'm not transexual because I don't plan on changing my body. The only reason why I didn't go through with changing my body is because I couldn't have a baby. The part about being pregnant was about having kids. That is not about sex, but about being a mother.

Second I didn't dress at home because I felt I would be disowned if I did. I also didn't have a desire to dress. Who I am is more about the heart and soul. On the inside I feel I am female. I also feel I should have been born a female and not male. My body is what is wrong.

Third another reason I didn't change is because I would feel alienated in the female world. The only way I will change is if I can be a fully complete female or start life over again as a child. The reason why I am willing to start life over again is because childhood is important in being a mother.

P.S. I know I can never become a child again. I know the difference between fantasy and reality. I also know logic and reason. The only thing I could do with my life is find a balance between everything.