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We have an opening in my office for a better job than the one I have now. Those jobs are few and far between. My boss was making the interview selections today. I am hoping I got one but I am seriously afraid I won't. He didn't say anything when I saw him, which could mean anything at all. Still I am very nervous. It feels like a real make or break moment. I have applied for probably 7 or 8 of these jobs in 10 years, interviewed for 6 of them, but didn't land any. I have been told on numerous occasions that I did very well in the interviews. But it just never happens. If it doesn't, it is the nail in the coffin of my tenure here, as far as I am concerned. 10 years in a dead end job is too long. I have not been aggressive enough in searching for jobs. My bad. I regret it now because I am 39 years, coming close to the time when age discrimination is more likely than not. I am really, really scared and worried. Not sure I will be able to sleep until I find out.
I have been told that in order to advance I have to do certain things that are currently outside my job description. But in order to do that (write papers or analyze data, for example) I have to do it ON MY OWN TIME. Like I have so much of that. So I went back to school. I hope that helps but who knows since I have not completed my MS.
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