What Goes Around, Comes Around

[magical thyme]

30. MOL, I've not had a friend in the "real" world since I moved to Maine in MOL

I've stopped trying. I don't discuss anything beyond the weather and what needs to be discussed. I live in the red armpit of the midcoast area. I thought at the hospital I'd find likeminded people. Wrong. The lab techs are all Ron Paulites and the lab assistants are teabaggers!

Certain neighbors have tried to injure my animals, trashed my property, etc., so there is no friendship there.

Even my sister turned into a teapartier and is impossible to even converse with at a superficial level because she will call unexpectedly and launch verbal attacks, always at bad moments (like the weekend before I started a week of nonstop final exams)....just like my mother dearest used to.

So I certainly can empathize with your situation. My response, after several years of trying and failing, has been to accept the situation for what it is and stop worrying about it. I have had other times in my life when I felt very isolated and alone.

At least this time I have my dogs, my birds, my horse, my cat, my garden, my privacy and DU!

Acceptance is the last step in the grief process, and the final step before you open to the new. So all I can suggest is you may be moving through grief over loss of your old expectations around social life. So try to move through the grief process toward acceptance. Simple acceptance. It is what it is.