Do you have a strong self hatred/destructive drive?

[get the red out]

19. Bless your soul

Our Mom wasn't as bad as a "Witch" but the rages, OMG. And the strange constant put downs. At some point I blocked out a lot of my childhood, but my sister remembered every detail! Strange how we had opposite reactions.

Our Mom remembers nothing at all that was out of place. It's strange, she has a fantasy of our growing up and our family that is nowhere in the ball park of reality. She even believes she married my Dad in 1963, which is what we were always told. When Dad died my sister and I were taking care of final business (she was totally incapable and is now in assisted living) and we found their marriage license and they married in January of 1964 - which meant our puritanical Mom was pregnant with me when they eloped and got hitched. SHOTGUN WEDDING, ironic after all the times she called us nothing but whores as teenagers when we'd barely even been on a date!

The memories are rather intellectual now, and interesting like I'm reading a novel or something. I can remember a little more but am still detached.

Thanks for this discussion. More needs to be known about BPD, it is a life destroyer, and I think it is a lot more prevalent in our society than the psychological community wants to admit.