What's the point in creativity again?

[Neoma]

6. I don't earn a living.

You can call me a house wife if you like, but that's pretty inaccurate. I grew up the unschooled way. I taught myself, and it's so ingrained in me, there's a certain pressure to keep doing it. So, I keep doing it. I'm in my own school constantly. I give myself homework. How many people do you know that does that out of habit?

Because of my education, I also kept my imagination and creativity intact, unlike a lot of people I know. So yes, it's very natural. It's challenging in its own way, I'll go along with that. But the constant pressure I've held over myself about learning and learning, and constantly learning, it's difficult to find a reason (in my head) to use any of my talents.

As you said in a sense... "But I could learn Japanese instead!" Is the constant idea in my head. But, I could do this, or that. It's better for me...guilt trip, guilt trip.