My ongoing exposure to domestic violence

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14. it's amazing how many of our situations

sound exactly the same.. I do need to do this for my children.. I can already tell that my 2yr old is scared when he hears us arguing.. I always try to go in the basement when we are having a fight, but sometimes he will just start yelling, and my youngest will just cover his ears constantly.. I feel like a horrible mother.. They deserve better than this, and it's my fault because I have let this go on far too long.. I am definitely NOT leaving my house.. He is going to the courthouse with me this week to get his name off of the deed (this was how I negotiated him staying) because I am not letting him try to get my house.. My parents paid for this house.. It's just hard because I don't have a friend that can come over, and help me get him out, so unfortunately I will have to depend on his parents. It may be a better idea that way, because he won't go as crazy if they were here..

See, what scares my husband is that he feels he doesn't deserve me, and he knows deep down, I could find someone better than him in a heartbeat. He has never talked down my appearance, so I think this fear adds to his paranoia of me leaving the house, and having my own life..

I am very happy that you were successful in ending your abuse.. I hope I have the courage to be successful as well..