Now I have to live in fear the next four years
For the African American Group
It's been two weeks now since I woke up to the painful news that Trump is going to be our next President. I have been angry for the past two weeks. I have been sad the past few weeks. Then, and I can't believe I have to say this but I have been crying my brains out and mostly at night for the last two weeks.
My white friends who support me can understand my fears. I had proudly come out to certain friends, to certain family members but when I heard others saying things like they agree with the bathroom bill that really made me cringe to my stomach and it really had an impact on coming out to them. Even if I did come out would they still feel the same way they did.
Then I hear people like Perry Small, from WVON who bitches day in and day out that she's going to be fine under a Trump administration. Maxwell Billion, who comes on her show day in and day out bitching about how the democrats don't have our best interest in mind. How can I abandon a party that gave me the right to marry who ever I wanted to marry?
Now, as the reality sits in and I realized that the Republicans now control every thing, I have to be equally as careful now when I go out in public. I live in North Carolina and the part of North Carolina I live in is Trump country. When I go into town, especially before election day, I saw nothing but Trump signs all over the county. I had a bad feeling that people were going to vote for this clown. I did nothing but pray that Hillary Clinton would come out on top.
Now that Trump has won, his crazy racist supporters have started coming all over social media, calling me the n word to my face, calling me the f word to my face. I've even had a few demand my physical address so they can come and "explain" things to me. I am afraid to go out in public now. I've had to resort to telling a few family members that I won't go anywhere from now on without an able bodied person being with me. I never know if today is going to be the day that some crazy fool high on drugs or high on hate will come out of no where and start attacking me in public. I may be paranoid but that's how I feel. Everything we worked for is now in danger because certain people could not get off their behind and come and vote because they did not like Hillary Clinton. I will never forgive those voters who stayed home. I will never forgive those voters who voted for Trump. Now, I hear they are even stalking people here on this site.
I quite frankly am tired of trying to fight. Trying to talk to some people to show them the error of their ways. How can you talk to someone so stubborn so pig headed that they literary don't care if you live or not? So yes, I will be living in fear for the next four years. I don't even know if my benefits will still be here in four years. I am so terrified and afraid that I won't be able to survive this administration, so I'm going out on my faith that someway, somehow I'll get my wish of selling a show to the Hollywood community happens. I am hearing that there are massive cuts to Social Security coming and if they happen I am fairly certain I won't be able to survive. So I will hang out here as long as I can. I just hope and pray that there's someone here on Democratic Underground who has the connections can reach out to me to help my dream come true.
Until then, fear is my only companion because quite frankly I have no more faith in the human race
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I wish I could say everything is going to be okay or other words of reassurance.
I am hoping and praying the damage to our country is minimal (and the damage to you and other individuals is imperceptible), but that is all I have at this time.
or didn't vote at all were those who had nothing to fear, and they don't give a damn about those who do.
We must continue to fight so that you are not cast off by these cretins. 
We are here with you.
Don't give up, no matter how hard it is to keep going. There are people who understand and are with you all the way. I realize that's easier to say than do, but we just have to keep getting back up and putting one foot in front of the other.
I know a number of POC in blue Charlotte who have been verbally assaulted by Trump supporters too. It turns my stomach. I will ALWAYS fight them. Until I die. It is so disheartening to lose like this, when it felt like we had made so much progress. But as John Lewis pointed out, fighting for justice is a lifetime commitment. I guess he would know.
Some truths remain. We are a diverse nation and will continue to become more diverse. The majority of white people will continue to vote for racist Republicans, but there are going to be fewer white people, overall, and a sizable minority of us will not enable the racists. Alt-right can have their little Nazi fantasies, but the math for that kind of thing does not work in this country. And Trump cannot deliver on most of his promises. So that will be disheartening for them too.
It is ok to have less faith in the human race, but don't lose faith in yourself or the rightness of the cause. They WANT us to give up, to stop caring about each other. That is the plan. But if we love each other and keep trying, we cannot lose in the end.
is human and normal, but DO NOT FEAR these upcoming trumpfuhrer brownshirts. They want us to fear their mob rule and power. Spit in their eye, metaphorically until they march down your street. Then resistance is the key. We are going to be forced to become a solid group again as we were early in the civil rights movement before Cointelpro infiltrated its agents of dissension and disinformation. We can feed each other, will have to house each other and will have to have each others backs. Those who have at any given moment, share. Then the next and on and on down the block and in the neighborhoods. I have a trumpfuhrer voter two houses down. Just have to keep an eye on them keeping an eye. Fascist rise, fascist and their followers fall, no matter how long it takes and no matter, sadly, how many die. RESIST!!!! Don't even fall for the BS you're reading here about how "we must talk to the trumpfuhrer voter". They do not change!!! They have been among us for generations just waiting on their chance to put minorities "back in their place" and now they are on the rise, big time, NATIONWIDE. The "talk to the trumpfuhrer voter, they will listen" advocates. here act like this will be a normal "contentious" 4 years. Let them wallow in their naivete. They will be "OH MY GOD-ING!!!!!" sooner rather than later.
Until they pull the plug on social media because the zukerbergs, Ailes, types et al. will pull the plug at the fascist demand. It will be back to the 19th and 20th century for us. Look I'm 69, will probably go down into death fighting the fascists, I hope. Hope it's not just some vitamin deficiency that kills me...
but to the end RESIST THE POWER!!!!!!!!!!! Do not give up hope, it is the the fascists largest ally.
