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Systematic Chaos

(8,601 posts)
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 07:03 PM Jun 2015

News of my death are

Not exaggerated. Yesterday I died (as posted by his wife), apparently peacefully and in little to no pain, while sleeping.

On Wednesday, Kirk was given a new pain medication script. Since he was in quite a lot of pain for quite a while, he chose to take the last of his hoarded stash of pain pills that he had received nearly two months prior, when discharged from the long term stay Nursing/rehab facility he had been in for months. He had recently also been experiencing more issues with waking up while sleeping, due to problems breathing, caused by sleep apnea. He had just taken a sleep study which confirmed that he needed a bi-pap, but it would take a week or two (at the time) before they would be able to get the results to a doctor, so that he could get a new machine. It's my opinion that, due to the small amount of pain pills that he took, he became so relaxed (from lack of pain) that he was unable to wake up when he stopped breathing while sleeping. I was dozing in a chair nearby, and thought it strange that it was so quiet. However, I was so tired that I ended up falling back to sleep before investigating. It wasn't until I woke up a second time and it was still too quiet. I became alarmed and checked on him. It was too late, he had been dead too long for emergency personnel to revive him.

I have located a recent video and picture of him, peacefully smiling at me a very special smile that he reserved for me alone. The video was regarding a power chair he was going to return, but it's a voice and image that I can keep forever to remember him by. I still don't know what I'm going to do, but I at least have the comfort of knowing that I can likely get assistance with getting him cremated. A friend of ours has already offered to let me stay with him while I get myself stabilized, so my cats and I have a roof when our rent comes due for July. I hope that Kirk has been helpful to people in this thread, and anyone is welcome to link this to any thread where this would be of interest.

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News of my death are (Original Post) Systematic Chaos Jun 2015 OP
Oh, no. I'm so sorry for your loss. Peace and comfort to you. PeaceNikki Jun 2015 #1
Condolences. n/t FSogol Jun 2015 #2
I am so sorry for your loss .... etherealtruth Jun 2015 #3
I am sorry for your loss Evergreen Emerald Jun 2015 #4
Deepest sympathy malaise Jun 2015 #5
My condolences... giftedgirl77 Jun 2015 #6
RIP, will miss you nadinbrzezinski Jun 2015 #7
I'm so sorry for your loss. Lars39 Jun 2015 #8
My heart is with you and yours,. myrna minx Jun 2015 #9
My deepest sympathies. NanceGreggs Jun 2015 #10
I am so sorry for your loss. LiberalLoner Jun 2015 #11
I am so sorry MissDeeds Jun 2015 #12
... Lilith Rising Jun 2015 #13
so sorry for your loss. sheshe2 Jun 2015 #14
condolences. nt DesertFlower Jun 2015 #15
. hifiguy Jun 2015 #16
((hugs)) Starry Messenger Jun 2015 #17
Damn... WillyT Jun 2015 #18
I am so sorry for you. May you find peace. Fla Dem Jun 2015 #19
I am so very sorry. DawgHouse Jun 2015 #20
We should all be so lucky to have our dearest love next to us when we draw breath no more. FailureToCommunicate Jun 2015 #21
I am so sorry for your loss... magical thyme Jun 2015 #22
... tosh Jun 2015 #23
I'm so sorry to hear this. yewberry Jun 2015 #24
Aww jeez. I'm so sorry. Hassin Bin Sober Jun 2015 #25
So so sorry passiveporcupine Jun 2015 #26
I am sorry for your loss Liberal_in_LA Jun 2015 #27
My condolences Half-Century Man Jun 2015 #28
My deepest sympathies. I'm so sorry for your loss. Ilsa Jun 2015 #29
Condolences to you and all who loved him. Gormy Cuss Jun 2015 #30
I'm so sorry for your loss. mountain grammy Jun 2015 #31
My sincere condolences. Blue_In_AK Jun 2015 #32
He shall be missed... ScreamingMeemie Jun 2015 #33
My condolences denbot Jun 2015 #34
*** 99Forever Jun 2015 #35
I'm so sorry for your loss cal04 Jun 2015 #36
so very sorry eom catrose Jun 2015 #37
I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. stage left Jun 2015 #38
So very sorry BrotherIvan Jun 2015 #39
I'm so sorry for your loss, Mrs SC Hekate Jun 2015 #40
So sorry for your loss. justgamma Jun 2015 #41
He's not gone... He's just on the other side of the tall grass. cherokeeprogressive Jun 2015 #42
... Quackers Jun 2015 #43
I am so sorry that you lost your husband. Raine1967 Jun 2015 #44
I am so sorry you have lost your husband, this is a hard thing to deal with. sabrina 1 Jun 2015 #45
I'm so sorry for your loss KT2000 Jun 2015 #46
Oh no. So very sorry for your loss. cyberswede Jun 2015 #47
So very sorry for your loss. greatlaurel Jun 2015 #48
I am so saddened to hear this... MrMickeysMom Jun 2015 #49
Wishes of peace Thespian2 Jun 2015 #50
So very sorry. n/t Bossy Monkey Jun 2015 #51
He was a good bloke. My condolences to you and yr family.... Violet_Crumble Jun 2015 #52
I am so sorry for your loss. panader0 Jun 2015 #53
I'm so sorry kcr Jun 2015 #54
Although I did not know your Husband Stellar Jun 2015 #55
((Systematic Chaos)) blm Jun 2015 #56
Oh no ... I was wondering where Kirk was. Such a good friend auntAgonist Jun 2015 #57
Terrible news. blackspade Jun 2015 #58
i'm so sorry for your loss. barbtries Jun 2015 #59
Sorry for your loss. 47of74 Jun 2015 #60
this news came as a complete surprise to me this morning lavenderdiva Jun 2015 #61
My deepest sympathy Worried senior Jun 2015 #62
Please accept my condolences. n/t lumberjack_jeff Jun 2015 #63
Will be missed RIP Person 2713 Jun 2015 #64
requiescat in pace, kirk, and may there be peace and comfort for all your loved ones. niyad Jun 2015 #65
Our deepest condolences so sorry Peacetrain Jun 2015 #66
My deepest condolences, that is terrible to hear. Moostache Jun 2015 #67
So sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences. calimary Jun 2015 #68
I've watched a lot of death go by in others and have learned to appreciate when they jtuck004 Jun 2015 #69
........ daleanime Jun 2015 #70
... AuntPatsy Jun 2015 #71
I am so sorry to hear this. n/t murielm99 Jun 2015 #72
You have my deepest sympathies. nt jschurchin Jun 2015 #73
I am so sorry. that is small comfort but know its true. I roguevalley Jun 2015 #74
I'm so very sorry. Arugula Latte Jun 2015 #75
My best to his family and friends. rhett o rick Jun 2015 #76
So sorry for your loss. madamvlb Jun 2015 #77

NanceGreggs

(27,813 posts)
10. My deepest sympathies.
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 07:27 PM
Jun 2015

My own husband passed two weeks ago, so I have a sense of what you are dealing with.

It does get easier - little by little, day by day. Don't be afraid to rely on friends and family, or to ask for help when needed. I have found that my friends are anxious to be of assistance; it is their way of honouring their friendship with him as well.

Peace to you and yours,
--- Nance

FailureToCommunicate

(13,918 posts)
21. We should all be so lucky to have our dearest love next to us when we draw breath no more.
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 08:05 PM
Jun 2015

Last edited Sat Jun 6, 2015, 05:54 PM - Edit history (1)

You were right there with him...that must have meant the world to Kirk.

Wishing you some peace and rest in the coming days. Caring for someone so ill takes a hugh toll that only later becomes apparent.

Rest, and know you were loved. DU will miss your dear friend also.

BrotherIvan

(9,126 posts)
39. So very sorry
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 09:10 PM
Jun 2015

But if there is a way to help donate toward cremation, I would like to help. I am sure others on DU would as well. My sincere condolences to you.

Hekate

(89,645 posts)
40. I'm so sorry for your loss, Mrs SC
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 09:12 PM
Jun 2015

Thank you for letting his friends here know of his passing.

May you be comforted by knowing he is beyond pain now, and may his name be remembered for a blessing.

 

cherokeeprogressive

(24,853 posts)
42. He's not gone... He's just on the other side of the tall grass.
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 09:25 PM
Jun 2015

The Great Spirit took him by the hand and led him there so he wouldn't have to fear the Journey.

sabrina 1

(62,325 posts)
45. I am so sorry you have lost your husband, this is a hard thing to deal with.
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 09:44 PM
Jun 2015

I am glad you have a friend to help you at this difficult time.

I am glad he was not in pain.

Take care of yourself, :hugs:

greatlaurel

(2,004 posts)
48. So very sorry for your loss.
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 09:53 PM
Jun 2015

Please accept my condolences at this difficult time.

Please take of yourself and your furry friends.

MrMickeysMom

(20,453 posts)
49. I am so saddened to hear this...
Fri Jun 5, 2015, 10:16 PM
Jun 2015

I have a good understanding of what you said, and it breaks my heart. May you be held by family and given comfort.

My condolences to you and all your family.

MMM

Violet_Crumble

(35,954 posts)
52. He was a good bloke. My condolences to you and yr family....
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 07:48 AM
Jun 2015

He used to play Rocksmith too, and I'd added him on x-box live. I don't think he liked the same music as me, though, from what I could see of the songs he was doing...

RIP Kirk

Stellar

(5,644 posts)
55. Although I did not know your Husband
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 09:04 AM
Jun 2015

my heart felt condolences go out to you and all of those that loved him.

auntAgonist

(17,252 posts)
57. Oh no ... I was wondering where Kirk was. Such a good friend
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 09:15 AM
Jun 2015

and I enjoyed talking to him so much.

Jeanette, I am so very sorry for your loss. You and Kirk endured so much together and through it all you loved one another so much.
Kirk was a font of knowledge and tried so hard to get healthy it just wasn't meant to be I guess?

Please do take care of yourself and message me anytime you want to chat.
I'm here.

My deepest sympathy and condolences for your loss and ours.

kesha.

lavenderdiva

(10,726 posts)
61. this news came as a complete surprise to me this morning
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 09:41 AM
Jun 2015

While I knew he was in a great deal of pain recently, and had struggled with health issues over the years, I had no idea of this recent turn of events. My heart goes out to you while you are sorting out the myriad of issues and emotions that come with losing someone so precious. He was a very dear friend to me here on DU, as we were mods together for many terms. We also participated in several groups together here on DU and would PM one another, giving one another encouragement in our individual battles with weight. He was always someone who inspired me to stick to it, whatever the battle was. Life had presented him so many challenges, and he always seemed to rise above them, and yet deal with them head on.

His love for you J, was always evident and he felt so blessed by your presence in his life. He was very open about sharing how much joy and happiness and strength you brought to him. He seemed to be a caring and loving man, and I know he treasured your relationship. My heart breaks for you and this loss. Please know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers in this difficult time. I'm sending you LOTS of hugs.....

niyad

(110,955 posts)
65. requiescat in pace, kirk, and may there be peace and comfort for all your loved ones.
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 11:24 AM
Jun 2015

my deepest sympathies on your loss.

Moostache

(9,895 posts)
67. My deepest condolences, that is terrible to hear.
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 12:00 PM
Jun 2015

I hope that you are receiving the love and support you need from family and friends.

calimary

(80,155 posts)
68. So sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences.
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 12:23 PM
Jun 2015

I'm so sorry to hear this. Dear Systematic Chaos. All our love. And to his wife - thank you for sharing this most difficult and heart-rending moment of yours with us. You do not mourn alone.

 

jtuck004

(15,882 posts)
69. I've watched a lot of death go by in others and have learned to appreciate when they
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 12:42 PM
Jun 2015

don't have to suffer.

You have our thoughts tonight. And I am really glad you have that video as a reminder.

Take care of yourself. And the cats.

roguevalley

(40,656 posts)
74. I am so sorry. that is small comfort but know its true. I
Sat Jun 6, 2015, 03:17 PM
Jun 2015

send you all the love I have. Time is your friend. Nothing else will help. Please take care and know you and Kirk are so loved.

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