Went to my first outdoor concert since quarantine... kinda had an existential crisis etc
Last Night, Dead Winter Carpenters at Truckee Outdoor Ampetheater/Park
Nice park near the river, great venue... BUT no limitations on people. Outdoors so we got ther early and set up camp.
as the crowd thickened, I started having waves of anxiety. Like I hadnt been around that many people in so long, I was freaking out. I literally had waves of tears and realized the gaps had been filled in and my escape to the parking lot was cut off essentially. I was grateful we had chairs and really defended our space and the people in front of us also spread out and we filled up the gap betwwen us with stuff to pervent others moving in.
As more people poured into the venue, the announcer asked us to "make room, get cosy" to accomodate more people....we all looked around and said collectively...."Nope, We're good"
I still had moments of joy with the music and watching the kids dance & play, overlapped with panic and moments of horror at the amount of humans in one place.
Think I wanna just cash in my chips and get an acre in the real woods with a pod house and just isolate forever. Humans scare me more now... too many of them...
I think Im ok with podcasts, etc...
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