How much of your own history do you know?
History can be a comfort and an adviser. There were bombs going off, bank robberies by underground resistance groups to fund civil disobedience, and riots on college campuses before the people were heard and the administration's policy in Vietnam was forced to change.
There was a draft that took the best and brightest off to a far away jungle to be slaughtered for a pack of lies.
The heavy weight champion of the world risked everything to take a stand against the racism and corruption of the day.
Ordinary people along with entertainment superstars risked life and liberty to affect the change they felt necessary to make carrying on worth it.
You called me a freeper troll earlier tonight for trying to make people realize that quiting the Democratic Party was counterproductive and even selfishly indulgent, and here you are posting a thread full of despair and understanding of those who would just quit and slink away to the best life they could carve out for themselves knowing that injustice and barberry was continuing unabated.
It seems you need some inspiration and some revolutionary role models to pick up your spirits and carry on the good fight.
Might I suggest an American History book as a good starting point and then let the character in them that you find compelling guide you next course of ACTION.
Here are just two of mine.