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Wife, kids and I spent a lot of time volunteering down @ Kerry HQ in DM in the summer, fall and winter months leading up to the caucuses....it was a first time experience for all of us. Have never been terribly political before, always tried to stay informed and voted, but had never been actively in involved in any campaigns or activist organizations before. I became hard-core convinced he was the man we needed in the Whitehouse when he gave his speech in DM the day he formally announced for the Presidency. His speech was fairly good, he hit all the right points, etc... that I expected him too, but what really sealed the deal was "the band of brothers".
Before the event started I was just doin' some people watchin, the usual suspects were around, local pols, unions, teachers, health care worker organizations, environmental activists, etc. There was one group of guys that seemed a little oddly out of place. They were all gathered together off to the side, talking with each other - a group of guys all my age, some in suits, some lookin' like they just got off the golf course, a couple that looked like they had just gotten off their construction job. Asked a volunteer who they were, and she told me they were guys that had served in Nam with Kerry and had paid their own way there just to be with him in this moment. I thought, cool, couldn't even imagine at that time who would stand by Bush's side from that same time frame now.
After the speech, everybody was all excited, music blarin' confetti, you know the drill. Everybody was jumpin' up on the stage to get in the picture, etc. Kerry was playin' his part and then he I saw him look over at "the band". Their eyes met and all those guys, without a word being said, like it was just some primal universal force started moving as if they were one organism towards him. He started walking across the stage towards them, None were smiling, their eyes all locked on each other. They met at the edge of the stage and he reached down to help each one up. As each one got up, face to face with him, they looked each other in the eye. It was the look of men who had been to hell and back with each other, who had looked deep int each others soul when all was darkness around them and had come into the light by trusting each other. It was a look that grabbed my gut and soul, a moment I'll never forget; and I knew, just knew, this had to be the guy.
During the campaign, it was often tiring, often cold (when canvassing door to door or being part of "the crowd" for TV events) and left us awake many nights wondering what was going on, when all the polls were writing him off. We existed on too much pizza and caffeine. During this time I met Wade Sanders, a long-time friend of JK's that was a fellow Lt on the Swift boats and knew him from even before Nam. He always said, "Things will go up, they will go down, just remember, John always knows when his homework is due"
Towards caucus night, I felt somewhat confused. Many of the polls were saying JK would be lucky to finish third. Edwards wasn't even really in the picture. I had been working the phone bank and for nearly two weeks I did not have one undecided break towards Dean, only a few to Gephardt. Everybody was going to JK or Edwards. At campaign events you would see all the Dean people, but realize that they were all largely college kids that had been imported to work the campaign. Intelligent, well-meaning, idealistic and committed individuals they were, but they weren't Iowans, They wouldn't be voting in the caucuses. I just wasn't gettin my head around what the news organizations were saying and what I was seeing. There just seemed to be a big disconnect.
Well, we all know what happened. Caucus night started out being a personally anxiety ridden time for me, but ended up being an incredible high that can't even be explained adequately in a forum like this...you just kinda had to be there.
In some sense, regardless of how this election turns out, I feel like this has been somewhat of a life changing experience for me. Never again will I sit on the sidelines and wish "somebody should do something". I will be involved from now on in the issues and directions I would like this country to go. I know there will be disappointments, but the worst feeling of disappointment of all to deal with, is if you didn't try. This campaign has taught me a lot about people and myself. I will always hold JK and his "band of brothers" in deep respect for what they have already done for me.
Sorry about the long post..just hard to articulate what a profound experience this has been.
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