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if you care to hear....
This isn't a complete portrait, but interesting, in my opinion.
She was a bank teller in the mid-1970s, making $2 an hour. She wore her skirts as short as possible, thinking she'd get a raise that way. She had silky blonde hair she was still sort of wearing bee-hive-ish, gorgeous green eyes, peaches and cream skin, cute figure. Stunning smile. The guys at the bank, Mercantile Bank in downtown Dallas, called her "Miss America."
She was divorced by then, living with me and my little brother in a government-subsized apartment. She had a different date every weekend. We were so broke she could hardly afford makeup, so she'd use the testers at the department store cosmetic counters before her dates. We ate a lot of beans and cornbread. We always wanted Kool-Aid, but she'd remind us we didn't have sugar and ask us if we thought she was made of money or something.
One night she sat on our threadbare couch, broke down in tears holding all her bills and told me she was going to marry a "rich guy."
She wore out her Carol King and James Taylor albums, playing them over and over while she vaccuumed or did dishes or dusted. She was fanatical about musicals and would sing show tunes all over the house, even though she was tone deaf. She was self-taught on the piano and saved up money to buy sheet music for popular tunes of the day, such as Linda Rondstat songs. ("Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool...")
She had a favorite t-shirt with a big marijuana leaf on it that read "Like, Wild" I never understood that shirt when I was a kid.
She'd randomly decide we'd need to get out of town and pack up the Buick and drive to east Texas. We'd stay in some seedy cabin near Caddo Lake and just sit around at a dirty picnic table for hours. I never knew what we were escaping from. She'd stare off into space for the longest stretches of time.
After she met and married her "rich guy" she decided to go to college. It took her nine years to get her bachelors degree and then she got a masters. Her rich guy became an alcoholic and later lost the family company.
She washed our hair in the kitchen sink. She talked to herself a lot and I loved to watch her when she didn't know I was in the room. Her lips would move and she'd have this lovely conversation with I don't know who, culimating in her tinkling laugh at whatever the other person said that was so funny. She usually did that while making dinner. Chicken's burning but mom's having a good time laughing and talking to herself.
My brother and I knew she was in a good mood when she'd swoop us into the car and take us for ice cream cones.
Her tuna fish was nothing short of a miracle but her beer cheese soup made us sick. Literally.
She wrote little messages on my crayons when I started first grade. I was startled to see her writing on my crayons and the day I realized I had to peel back the paper to sharpen one, I cried.
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