Reply #1: Hi MBD

[jschurchin]

Well you took the first step by admitting you have a problem. This is a good thing, however to think you can begin to recover from an addiction "on your own" is very difficult. I am not saying it cannot be done, it can, however the success rate is extremely low.

The 2 key's for me are honesty and spirituality. I tell everyone, and I mean everyone, that I am an recovering addict, and I thank my higher power every day for letting me open my eyes and giving me strength to face another day. I do not associate with people who drink or do drugs. If someone I know wants to do that, thats up to them, but they know I will not be around them, I don't babysit.

I am in some ways like you, I am a private person and I do not attend meetings. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I haven't, I have, it's just that it is not good for MY recovery. Recovery, FOR ME, is a very selfish thing, it is about me.

You need to get honest with your family, tell your husband what you have told us. You need his help and support because you have a problem with alcohol. Tell your friends and neighbors the same thing. No one ever said getting sober was/is easy. It is, pardon my language, a motherfucker. But IT CAN be done. Will you be embarrassed? Yes. Will you feel like shit? Yes. Will you think people look at you differently? Probably. But how important is getting sober to you? Remember this is about you. Your husband can not drink for you, neither can I, neither can any of the other posters on this board. Only you can make the decision not to take that first drink, we can only support you in that decision.

Let me tell you, I was a hardcore opiate addict, I spent between $400-$600 a week on drugs, and I have been sober now since January 14th 2000. I live my life one day at a time, lord willing I will make through today sober, so far so good. I never forget where I came from and always remember that I never want to go back. If I ever use again I WILL DIE. This is a fact. I know this because I know me.

If you want PM me. I will be glad to correspond with you. And if not, talk to AZDemDist6 or KitchenWitch. Both these ladies can be a great help to you.

Best of luck MediumBrownDog

John