Reply #2: Bless you for this!!

[JanusAscending]

As the daughter of a departed soul who went through this, it helps my heart so much!! She lingered for so, so long, and I could never understand it! Eleven long years, and in the end I often wondered "where" she was. That last couple of years I never knew if she even realized I WAS THERE for her. I had lost my Mommy to this dread disease already, and thought I was going to handle her passing with ease. NOT SO!! I was devastated as much as if she'd never been sick a day in her life!
I'm beginning to understand a little of what she may have gone through, as I find myself sitting and staring at the TV, while me and my mind are off to long past times and memories, and places.
Especially in the AM while I'm still waking from the haze of sleep, and having my first cup of coffee. Don't laugh, but I've taken some pretty long "mind trips" while sitting on the "throne" in the AM!!!:hurts: :rofl: :rofl:
Just before she had to go to live in a Nursing home, she used to "sundown" every evening, and go on a crying jag. She cried for her Mom and Dad, and wanted to go home.(she was at home) God bless my Mama, she's home now. I will never stop missing her.
Love ya, JA