Reply #9: Thank you everybody for your hugs and support

[northernlights]

I majorly appreciate it. I'm feeling better today and coming up with a plan of action.

The 6 years of closed doors wasn't all around MLT. First, it was when my career in high tech marcom totally crashed and it became clear it wasn't coming back any time soon. Since then, it seems to be an annual attempt and failure to get my life back on track.

There was the 6-month training program I went through in hopes of starting a business, but I decided against it (and for good reasons).

Then it was when I moved here with loose plans around starting a business, but ended up with major cost overruns starting with a single bad contractor (in a very unregulated, rural area where locals protect each other against evil "transplants").

Then it was the low end job with the nutcase family.

Then it was when I was contacted by a former colleague at HP for a big freelance project, so I though maybe my career had been merely comatose, not dead. Only it turned out he is (most likely unwittingly) part of an identity theft ring operating out of HP and they made off with my identity, but no actual work.

Oh, and there was real estate course right before the market crashed, although that was actually a last-ditch hope of helping to fund the MLT training.

And *now* it's the MLT training itself.

Anyway, I've been remembering and remembering specific conversations and how I made specific decisions. Again, it's mostly "she said/she said." She's a slippery sales type; they always maintain deniability.

I looked into a number of other MLT programs last night and will continue researching them. The pros are it could be time for me to move to a warmer, friendlier climate. The cons are that every program is somewhat different so it doesn't look like that will speed up the training. Plus as a nonresident, my tuition will go way up. So as of this moment, the cons are winning.

I also know there is more than one way to skin a cat. If I get an "in" at the hospital where the clinicals and much of the training is held, rules can be bent. And I do have a potential reference from their training director.

I'm just backed into a corner right now. I either *have* to find work, which I've been unable to do for most of the last 6 years. Or I *have* to sell my farm...in this market. Or I *have* to take extra courses and get another loan. Or I *have* to win the lottery.