crap.crap.crap. another shoe drops. I don't know what to do.

[northernlights]

I wrote to the MLT program advisor to let her know I'm out of "non-MLT" courses after this spring and ready to start the MLT program this summer. And to find out where I am on the waiting list. So she told me to submit a "change of program" card asap. And that MLT starts in the fall and courses go in a specific order.

Ok, so unexpectedly I have no school this summer. Maybe time to restructure my life to prepare for big push through MLT.

Double-checked online to see what courses I'd have in the fall, and how the program would progress. They've changed the program site, and now there is no curriculum page. I distinctly remember a curriculum page. So I searched through my several inch thick pile of paperwork from when I first applied and found it. WTF? There is only 1 MLT course per semester for the 1st year?!?! So instead of 15 months left of school...I have 3 effing years left?!? It will have taken me 5 years to finish a "2 year associates degree?!?"

None of this info -- about courses going in a particular order --is available online. Even the curriculum was pulled sometime after August '07.

Damn. Damn. Damn. I was misled -- and in some cases blatantly lied to -- repeatedly by the general advisor, before I was in pre-MLT and had a program advisor. The MLT program advisor has been essentially incommunicado. I don't blame her now -- she's just "retired" due to a recurrence of breast cancer. But according to one MLT student she's been this way all along.

And the general "advisor" is a liar. I'm not the only one who's been effed over this way. The fact is, I could have started the MLT program this past September if I'd been correctly advised, and then would have just 1 year left. The other people I see struggling and, in at least one case, blatantly lied to, have one thing in common with me. We're all 50's females. All of use. Everyone in the program is under 35 or so, except one very attractive man.

I should never have consulted any "professionals."
:cry::cry::cry: I should have stuck with my plan. Sell the effing farm back in spring '07 and move north and inland. I would have been out of here before the big crash and freed up enough money to last a few more years. And then could have downsized again, until all my animals were dead. And then been effing done.

I'm so effing sick of being lied to and robbed. It was bad enough by the stupid little kristian konservative "family company." I thought if I went to a big, regulated, government institution I'd be ok. What a fool.

I can't believe this. I had no debt, enough cash to make the move and a plan to hold out for a decade or so. It was a sad plan, and a lonely one. But at least my babies would have been ok, and I would have had some ok years.

Then I saw what looked like a legitimate "opportunity" and went for it. And now I have almost no cash, $10K in education debt, no decent job future, and I probably can't sell my home.