Reply #16: IF, and that is a big IF, it turns out you should "seek psychiatric help"

[Jamastiene]

for that, I'm in deep, deep trouble. Your "Leave me alone if you know what's good for you." sounds mild compared to my days where an Uzi barely fulfills my fantasies.

This morning, I saw on the news crawl thingy a description of how a cashier in Monroe, NC handled an armed robber. The cashier slammed the cash register drawer on the bank robber's fingers then beat the living shit out of the robber with a broom handle. The image of that in my head did wonders an Uzi could only dream of fulfilling. Something about that story just made me feel unusually good. I know I am probably evil for that, but I cannot help it. :evilgrin:

Other days, I'm fine. On those days, I have no violent thoughts and no real feelings of "the other humans are just wasting my damn oxygen."

I am happy to report that while I do sometimes still have the violent images, the violent impulses/urges are gone now. I just sort of think about it sometimes now instead of having to constantly fight the urge to the point that it interferes with my daily life. Plus, I haven't had any suicidal thoughts in years now. Bonus! My PMDD is rather subdued now. So, the Zoloft must be working to some degree.

You are probably fine with your feeling of "Leave me alone if you know what's good for you." At least you do not have to fight the urge to choke the living shit out of the idiotic right wing rednecks that surround you. :P