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No, really. You have been cautioned.
"The Romantization"
And when he said to me "Honey, you will be my only one" I thought of God, country and apple pie All the things I'd been taught to believe in so I believed
He would take me in his arms holding me too tight "There's a lot of bad out there, Baby" a protector of my frail little body frail brittle fawn all doe eyed and gushing affection we'd gurgle and coo and promise each other "If we do it, it will be a bond of our LOVE" "It'll be forever, like world class lovers"
Water caressed the shore dawn met a gentle drizzly fog off in the distance a trio of blindfolded violinists played
He "TOOK" me there on the shore with a kiss gentle and wet (not too wet) soft ever lasting rolling in the sand we made love for hours no sweat (really not a drop) my lover lifted me my limp frail brittle little spent body carried off into the morn, up to the house bathing me in scented water sponging my skin apologizing for making me his his by the flesh not the ring When he said "I'm sorry, Sweetheart, I love you" I believed
It's always like that when I remember blocked shoved back are the fuzzy green dice over the rear view mirror the glimpse of some kids faces peeping in to see the car rocking a seatbelt clasp wedged up in my shoulder blade diving deeper into my flesh each time you dove
I've even forgotten how "Things just got a little out of hand" a kiss hard and wet (all my chin was wet) a tongue made its way down my throat without first meeting mine wherever my top was as you sucked my nipples raw telling me I "loved it like this" I'd lost track of your other hand the one I could see muffled my screams with your flesh between my teeth until I heard the lock clank heard the gates open heard the flesh tear how it burned just the finger then your dick ugly gangly looking not invisible and spiritually fulfilling the glow the movies promised not slick long hard like in porno flicks ugly mean poking in missing the hole you dug instead you pused harder like to make a new fucking hole pulling out 8 inches when you only put 5 in blind gruff bone dry you kept on because you were "almost there, yeah baby, I'm almost there, you’re gonna fucking take me there with this tight pussy of yours, only a tighttight pussy does it for me" such high praise cumming inside me spilling all over the cracked vinyl interior of your daddy's Chevy Impala parked in the parking lot by Beach 43rd St.
Sweat dropped off of your skin into my eyes it didn't matter I was already crying my sweaty stomach only excited you more I sweat even though I "wasn’t giving, just taking" from you my sweat made you mad crazy mad horny made you were "gonna show me" "give me a fuck I'd never remember, it'd be that..." "Good," I thought, "good, now you’ll have to stop" you couldn't hurt me again if your, as you said "little soldier wouldn't salute" that was too quaint for the scene too little boy too dirty old man not a 5'8", fair skinned male, aged 17, last seen wearing a gray sweatshirt, blue jeans bunched around his ankles
Pushing me "get up and fix yourself, bitch" apologizing for not making me his by the flesh 'cause I "ain’t seen nothing yet" the only ringing was in my ears When he said "Whore, I should kill you" I believed
Morning came with hesitance memories are counted in days months years for morning to come is to accept what has really passed
His hugs were always too tight.
—Samantha Corbell
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