Reply #8: Sorry you are still struggling with this.

[idgiehkt]

Tomorrow I have to start my job hunt again. I have to because my life is kind of like a train getting ready to jump the track and three months I have just been standing there beside the track with my hand on the switch and I'm unable to move. It's so weird. I don't know what is wrong with me. Every day for three months I have been trying to get out there and it's like I'm kind of frozen or something. I'm sure it has to do with the stress I went through a while back, like a touch of PTSD or something. It feels like a giant phobia or something...I know what it's like to feel like you do and if you feel it's not going to get better and you have the resources financially it's probably better just to go on and leave. It's not like you haven't given the job a chance. I hope something better comes along.