Reply #55: Well, I have really mixed feelings after reading this.

[gardenista]

The other day, you were hit by a stranger.

Now you say that you were beaten for the third time by someone that you still call your friend.

While I'm glad that you are in therapy, I think it is not enough, and that you are in a crisis. If you have been physically assaulted twice in one week, and you are not asking yourself serious questions about the realationship with the person who beat you until you blacked-out, I am very, very concerned for your welfare right now.

You must think that you deserve to be treated this way, which is an attitude that abusers smell from miles away.

I really do hope that you talk at length with your therapist about this, and that you are honest with her about all of it. I honestly believe that your life is in danger if you are under the illusion that a man who beat you until you blacked out is just a misunderstood teddy bear.

I sincerely hope that you become willing to get the help you need.