Reply #19: My family was 'toxic' to me as well, Carlos....

[DemExpat]

and, believe me, the rejection and tearing down of any self-esteem you had over from Florida is not surprising at all in these circumstances.

They indeed treat you like a child, a black sheep of the family....for whatever reason....I also would feel the lack of an invitation for Christmas to be a real rejection.

The ONLY thing you can do, hon, is to start a life for yourself somewhere else, far away from them. Try not to leave angrily, and thank them for their version of opening up their home for you. In some strange way, they love you and want to help, although their actions (besides having you come stay with them) seem to the contrary.

But do get away a.s.a.p.

Do you like Washington D.C.? Any other town/city you like and would like to live in?

Hopefully once you have a job somewhere, you can build up a social life, and perhaps shop around and find a good counsellor to go to for talk and support. In the period of your life that you are in now, this is NO LUXURY, it might be a necessity. This has helped me in various tough periods of my life.

I also know what its like to feel miserable and not have anyone, not a soul, to talk to....
I hope that DU fills this void a little for you, even being on the Net there are people listening and responding.

But I'm sure you know that it is really all up to you, no one else, to get your life moving in a positive direction.

Hope to hear some GOOD NEWS from you very soon, Carlos, and I mean that with all my heart!

:hug:

DemEx